Postby thisiskris89 » Sun Nov 25, 2012 1:48 pm
Well,I did it.I talked to him.I felt that it was the right thing to do.And now i feel...great!
I feel like such a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.I really such a peace and a contentment.It went really well.I approached him before the Bible study started and tapped him on the shoulder and was like"uh,can I please talk to you for a minute?"
He very pleasantly and kindly said "Sure."So I like talked to him,end up missing the Bible study haha. He was so sweet as I talked and he was so understanding as I explained my feelings and how I didnt think he was a bad guy,he just needed to grow up a bit.He agreed he was immature,and said he has been doing some growing up these past months(thats so good,im proud of him)I threw in some little silly quips in the conversation to take away some of the tension and we laughed a bit.I told him I knew he didnt want to hurt me and stuff and he said he did care about me and that he really liked that i wasnt sexual and stuff.He had mentioned that my mother not being on board was a major factor.I mean I kinda explained why my mom acted as she did,but I mean she was warming up,I am sure if she had actually talked with him it would be cool,but its too late for that now.Well all in all this was the most difficult thing i had to do.But I know I am a stronger person for it.God wanted me to do this.I kept it together pretty good,i got kinda weepy at times,especially at the end,but God got me through it.I'm not angry anymore.
I told him that we are just gonna be strangers,he was so understanding.I think he reall truly cared about me.He did mention that he hides his emotions so when he seemed happy he really wasnt.
Well anyway, I wanna thank you all for your help.Especially QtheQreator,she kinda got me thinking about talking to him.Again I am greatful!!
I am no longer gonna think about him.I give it to God.I dont care anymore.
i float like a cloud and sting like a paper cut!:thumb: